I know I haven't updated this thing in basically forever, but I'm trying to get back into the swing of blogging once again, and I figure, what better time than right now, when my friendships are falling to pieces?
I hate being dropped like a bomb. I really hate it. And I can see why they don't want to hang out with me anymore--because I spend so much time with Julio--but to be incredibly honest, our relationship started so fast that I'm still getting to know him. And I'll never know everything about him, but seriously.
So. Long story short, I've noticed--and so has Julio--that since we started dating, I've kind of been neglecting my friends. But it hasn't been bad at all. We still had lunch together, and we'd hang out and walk to class together and have fun during marching band and everything, but all of a sudden, things just stopped.
I stopped getting invited out with them, and they've stopped talking to me as a whole. They don't even want to eat lunch with me anymore--Julio and I were going to sit with them for lunch yesterday before we had to go to the football game, but I decided against it, since when I asked to sit there, they didn't seem so enthused about letting me. So we sat at a table near them, and I realised that I was completely ignored. And everything they talked about were things that I wasn't in on. And I feel so horribly left out.
I know I'm complaining a lot, and this is probably incredibly ridiculous, but I feel like crap. Caroline was my best friend when I first started college, and the one day where I tried to patch things up--especially with her--she was silent and uncaring. Steph has been skipping the classes we have together, religiously, and then blaming it on the fact that she's sick, or that she forgot, or she got the times mixed up, or something. It's the eighth week of the semester now, I'm pretty sure that she hasn't mixed up or forgotten any of them.
I don't really have a problem with Terri, as she still talks to me whenever we see each other, and she even texts me sometimes. Annie completely ignores my texts and whenever I go to make a comment to her, it's kind of shrugged aside. These four girls were some of my best friends when I got here--we were flute buddies. And now we don't even talk. And it hurts. It really bothers me.
They go to the mall, they go ice skating, they go swimming at the rec, they go bowling in the student union--and I'm never invited. I know I'm such a sourpuss for complaining like this, and I know it's my fault for spending so much time with Julio that they sort of forget about me, but I've had a lot of time free lately; Julio and I have stopped spending so much time together, and I'm spending more and more time alone.
I've realised that my boyfriend is my only friend anymore.
What did I do, and how can I fix it?
