So I'm sitting in the student union playing Magic with a bunch of other nerds, because that's what we do on Friday nights--we just have Magic tournaments. And granted, they're not really tournaments, but it's just a bunch of kids that get together and play Magic. If you don't think I'm a nerd now, seriously, you've got another thing coming. I'm a big nerd, especially when it comes to Magic. I've spent a good at least five hundred dollars on Magic cards within the last five months. It's ridiculous. I blame Julio for making me learn how to play.

The only reason he made me learn how to play was because when we first started dating, he would ask me to buy him cards. The first set of cards that I bought him was the dual decks for Liliana vs. Garruk. It was twenty bucks and came with two pre-made decks. It was actually a pretty good deal. But after I bought him that first set of cards, he would continue to ask me to just buy him cards. And I would do it, because I was a nice girlfriend. But after a little while, I got pissed and told him that I wasn't going to buy him anymore cards because I hated wasting all that money. I could use it on more important things.

So then Julio decided that to make it so that I would want to buy him cards, that he would teach me how to play. So he taught me by making me read this pamphlet on Magic, and I learned instantly. It's weird, because Magic is a really hard card game to learn how to play. But he let me play with one of his decks and I would just ask questions, and he would teach me. And I started to get really good. My vampire deck is currently the best out of every deck we have, no matter what. We share cards now, which is why I'm willing to drop a hundred dollars, monthly, on a booster box.

But the point of this post is to say that I'm pissed. I'm seriously angry right now. I dropped a hundred dollars on a booster box for our draft today. Now, I got paid back from everyone for their share, but I ended up with pretty shitty cards. I had a feeling, so I'd bought the vampire intro pack as well, and I ended up with every single vampire card from the Worldwake box. Except for one. And Andrew got it! So he'd told me a few days ago, that if he got the creature, he'd trade it to me. And last night, Julio had traded Kevin, the same guy that's teaching me trombone, for three of this card that Andrew really wants. So I was planning on trading that card for the vampire.

Now Andrew is having second thoughts. His girlfriend runs a vampire deck too, so he figured he'd give it to her... Unless I toss over my best card. I only have two of him, and it was by chance that I got the second one. AND I WANT IT. But I'm willing to trade it so that I can make my vampire deck unbeatable, even though losing this card would make that less likely. I just want this vampire card so bad...

And Julio won't let me trade. Not at all.

I know this probably means nothing to you, but considering that there are eight of us here to play Magic, and I'm the only one that's not playing, and being entirely ignored because everyone else here is male, and Caleb had to leave... It's not fair.

It's not fair at all.

I realise that I'm jealous and just a bitch, but I want to play! And not only do I want to play, but I want that fucking card! And I want my boyfriend to be a hell of a lot less controlling. I bought him all those goddamn cards that he traded, and now he won't let me trade one when he has three. You don't need three of one card. That's fucking stupid.

I'm just pissed. So this was an angry post to explain how pissed I am. And I really want to just continue to angrily type, but that's slightly impossible right now, seeing as I want to play, and being on here would make everyone think that I don't want to play.

I've looked bored, annoyed, angry, everything that I can think of. I've been on the computer four times, checked Facebook every second I get, read all the new cards we got all the way through, and wrote this post.

And nobody has said anything to me.

I want Caleb back. At least he pays attention to me.