So I'm watching
27 Dresses for about the fiftieth time. I really can't get enough of this movie. Or any movie with a wedding in it, really. I've watched
The Wedding Date and
Made of Honor and
My Big Fat Greek Wedding about fifty times each (the latter about three hundred), and they'll all be coming with me to school as well, because I'll continue to watch them as many times as I please until I actually become a wedding planner. Watching these films or all those wedding planning shows... It makes me realise how badly I actually want this. I want to make people overjoyed on the happiest day of their life.
I haven't had the best life up to this point. And I've finally realised that I want to do something that's going to make me happy, too. I've always been that person that is happy along with other people's happiness. I'd rather help other people than help myself, you know? And I know it's sort of unhealthy or whatever, but it's how I am, and I can't change that as much as I try.
And I've realised I'm a hopeless romantic. Romance movies and books are my favourite, whether dramatic like The Notebook and Dear John or comedic like Because I Said So or Yours, Mine and Ours. I like my romance. I think that's why when I find someone and we end up lasting, it doesn't take me long to start talking about the future. My wedding is the one thing in my life that I want to happen perfectly. And God knows that it won't, but still. Being a planner beforehand will help me with every dream I've ever wanted for my special day. And what's wrong with planning that before I even have someone to share it with? I've known what I wanted for my wedding before I knew you had to fall in love to be proposed to.
And maybe, maybe this one will work out. I know that Julio and I have only been together for, going on 11 months now, but that's long enough for me to bring up the future. I mean, I know that relationships can end badly even if they've been together for 12 years without marrying, but I want married early in my life.
And now that Julio has enlisted, he's not against marrying early, either. Especially since he deploys within six months of being home after all his training. Yeah. That's a year from today, maybe, that he could be gone for a whole nother year. Of course, there's no way that I would get married at only 20 years old. No way ever. Engagement, maybe. But marriage? No thanks. I want to be married around 23. I'll have a good job by then, I'll have moved away from this hell hole, and my life will be in full swing. I think it's the perfect time.
Is it wrong of me to think about getting married this early in life? Especially if I want weddings to be my thing for the rest of my life? I honestly don't think it's that horrible. I'm a girl; my dream is to have a beautiful, elegant wedding and marry the man that's going to make me happy for the rest of my life. Every woman, almost, dreams of marrying and having children, right? I don't think this is wrong.
The point is, I haven't even started my new degree yet, but I know this is what I want. I want to cook. I want to plan weddings. I want to make people overjoyed on the happiest day of their life for the rest of mine.
